Always happens.

There is too much to say. Words couldn't describe them thoroughly.
When you asked about life, what is the one thing you regret?
I would say, if there is something you have to do, do it.
try to hint or something.. because sitting there to wait is stupid and foolish.
Or in my case, waste of time.

If someday, I was given a choice, a choice if I could travel back in time..
If I could, I would. I would want to go back in time to meet him.
To befriend him. To spend our time together, again.
The only regrets is that I have made a mistake back then when I simply decline his calls.

Maybe the only thing I miss is the old times.
I'm still living in the past, not moving on in this case.
I don't miss him. I only miss the old times.
Okay, I do, but now the current him.
I can't imagine myself being with someone else.
It feels so weird.
People say, Love is blind.
It actually depends on that particular person.
I was once blindly and stupidly in love.
It was all 3 years ago and I am still here, not wanting to let go.
But when I think of him now,
all I feel was disgusted and strange.
Really.
No joke.
I don't really miss him but I miss him.
Understand? The old him, I mean!

My past has made me what I am today.

我愛你

 這三個字,

 sucks.

Starting of first semester

Last blogged since February.
I couldn't access to the internet at home. how suck.
But now, I'm still waiting to go to Digital Mall to get myself a laptop.
Lenovo G470 maybe?
Well, I will spend all my previous earning as a promoter to get a laptop.

Since my campus has wireless almost everywhere...
Canteen, Library, Cyber Centre etc.. so I can access almost everyday.

Shit, I don't know what to blog.
I will not update blog regularly.
Will do if I suddenly thought of it.
Anyway, everything changes if I bought a laptop.
So yea.

Bye.

Kxinn.

P1 at my area really sucks.

The place I'm living in is not fully covered.
But still, even if it is within coverage, the line is still slow.

Will be going to hike this weekend.
I went to Sungai Gabai last Sunday.
Taken few pictures, but all these pictures will be on my blog for another couple of days.
I don't own a decent camera myself, so... I took them with my HTC DHD.

There won't be pictures in my posts because I couldn't upload due to P1 connection..
But heck, maybe no one cares too.
Because they don't know I'm back.
Maybe I've lost passion in blogging.
Feels like nothing to post about except my very own pathetic stories.

I did asked you to do me a favor. hehe
But you refused. Maybe you don't even wanna see me anymore.
I don't know. Or maybe you were not free to come. Nevermind.
You kept on saying I mistreated you back then, but you don't know anything.
You didn't know what I wanted and you didn't care.
All you cared is that why the hell I was ignoring you.
I just don't understand you after all.

So!
I have few pictures to share actually.
Its just that its in the laptop, damn.

After I have resigned my job, on 15th of February,
I was at home every single day, up to date.
There is something I just realized,
That the life I'm living is actually very similar to my dad's,
Always at home, nothing else to do.
I want to stay at home just to accompany him because he's always alone like this.
How bored to be him..
I guess life is trolling him.

kxinn.

So I came back to blog.
Thought that I would never blog again.
The reason I stopped blogging is mainly because of SPM.
so now, its over! I can blog.. yay
but also, blogging actually triggers all my depressive memories,
leads me to depressive moments too.....,
I die a little inside when I re-read old archives back in 2009.
triggers everything that I have tried very hard to forget.
each night was spent on thinking how naive I was back then.

back to main point;

I have resigned my job as P1 probationary staff @ Mobile Camp.
I missed the days when I used to blog everyday ;
I like the feelings of publishing the moments in my life online.
well, guess I'm back.
I mean, back to blogging everyday. btw, I will try. hahah
If I happen to find something interesting to share.


To SOMEONE,
you were such a nice person, or guy. 'were', because you don't do that anymore..
I appreciate everything you have done for me for the past 2 years.
the more I think about how I treated you, the more guilty I feel now.
you have moved on, I'm glad too.
its just that, I want you to know, you were the right guy,
but you came at the wrong time.
why did you come after all I have been through? I mean.. broke up, 2 years back?
I was deeply hurt, hell no I would be able to accept you.
alright.
I told you, it would be unfair if we were together because I don't feel anything for you.
you still wanted to give it a shot.
and I did asked you to give me some time.
until... someday in December 2010,
I thought it was the right time for me to give us a chance,
I called you, to mend up.
but by that time you were already in a relationship with someone else.
so I thought, well, maybe most of you are always the same.
couldn't keep your promise. I mean, its not like I want you to wait forever,
even you, yourself promised to wait till I'm done with depressing.
and.. you didn't.
also previously, there was hell a lot of negative feedback about you.
you chose a stranger girl over your 3 years girlfriend is another example why I needed time,
before I could accept you.
guess you wouldn't understand........

I also didn't understand why I'm writing this,
I don't feel better either.. seems like I couldn't express it thoroughly.
and maybe you're not even reading this.
maybe even no one is actually reading this.
but if YOU do, you will know, this is YOU.
but you don't visit my blog anymore...
so yea,
I hate blogging, because I'm always this pathetic.

ALWAYS POSTS MISERABLE ARCHIVES.

Good night.

kxinn.

Last last week

right.
last last week,
I think its 6th of March.
I went out with my dearest Chi-Ling.. :))))
off to Sunway Pyramid.



we brought little miao miao together. (not hers, or mine, either)
she's so desperate to become a momma.
kinda, cute.

this is Miao Miao.
*pinch*



okay.
we just loitered around like nobody's business.
and talked about boys! Lol.
shes a married woman.


eww. fat.

lunch in Full House.
I've forgotten what is this



the desperate housewife.



salmon and mango and some almond.


very very creamy.
LIKE. LIKE.


this one is with olive oil.


mine. :))





went home at 8pm.

and went out again, to Neway.
with Joe & Fenny
from 11pm-4am.
and believe me, I plopped on my bed and slept straight away.
6.30am woke up for school.
dead tired ._.

bye, see you again!
do me a favour ;
please click at my ads, and close the window after it loads.
doesn't bother you much right? :P





kxinn.

Weekend is coming again ! :)))))

so how's your Friday? x)
I hope its fantasticccccccc

hmm

just a short post, telling YOU,
I hate Friday now.
cuz we have to run around the school field for like, 5 rounds.
EVERY BLOODY FRIDAY.
we only have to run when, we didn't come for Latihan Rumah Sukan.
screw it, I'll go to school at 8.30am every Friday. xD

imagine, more than half of students in assembly went to padang and ran.
how...ironic.

April is coming, not April CSY ;
I mean April 2011 xD
and 4 more months to Trial
few months left, I should chiong!

我要发光!
发出Mid-Year ;
冲出Trial ;
打出SPM!
:D
我和Tracy的杰作
very noob right :P

so I'm going offline now..
gahyao for me !

Time's not waiting for anybody

time, wait for me.
what..?
Thursday already ?!
time really flies.
well. I gotta chiong!
for mid-year and TRIAL.
I hope I can ;
I'll take ex-SPM candidates to motivate myself !
er, for like, getting 8A's, 9A's, 10A's.
wth you guys. TIRU KE ??


okay. dear 2011 Form4 students ;
you'll hear my name next year!
for getting....,
flying colours result.

''we'll see.''
muahahaha.

smells......nice.

cigarette,shampoo,fried nuggets.

you really have to forgive me, alright.
I posted 3 posts in a row.
in one day. at the same time.
don't miss any!
*scroll down*